Thats me!

2012-02-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

At this point of time...

I really want to know, what can i do as a friend? as a daughter? as a student? :( :( :(

2012-02-09T21:52:00.002+08:00

Just need a little break from the hectic life!

Its always nice to have a little chat with your close ones, no matter how short they are, no matter how random they are, no matter through what (sms/facebook/chat on a journey). Even a message is powerful enough to melt people's hearts...at least mine will...

2012-02-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

I salute people who do ACC and ECON and lots of readings.

Respect.

Guang Liang - Shao Nian

2012-02-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

As we drift...and drift...till we see no one

end the thats.

courage the have dont yet do can i what thinking tired too am.

others to nuisance a become to want dont i and.

better be will it maybe, it leave just.

*sigh .jiahui, way the thats maybe.

2012-02-06T20:27:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be better than today!

Its a miracle that im still alive today! xD

The presence of the little little things in our lives has their meanings! :D

2012-02-05T21:55:00.003+08:00

Different lives Different stories Different footsteps...

have been reflecting my own life so much recently that i am kind of scared... seeing so many different stories around me make me think even more. no one will ever know how the other person feel but do appreciate it when they tried cause at least it shows their care and concern towards you. do show yours to others to as i believe it does make a difference.

life seems so empty that it seems that its missing something yet i dont know what is it. facing a cruel fact for years and counting, i cant simply make it out of my mind. its haunting me now and then even more.

invisible hurt. invisible pain. what can i even do? i felt so useless.

i would like to step out of the invisible box, step into other's world as least i know i will feel better but there seems to be a barrier.

A lousy feeling.

2012-01-30T23:43:00.001+08:00

If only i can buy time with you all...

2012-01-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

Totally lost faith in you...

2012-01-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

Should i? Or should i not?

2012-01-27T09:36:00.003+08:00

Expect lesser and you will be happier (:

Trying to find time with my family and friends yet they seem to be the relatively busy ones... I really miss the times with my friends, like really.

....

...

**Feel like:

-Singing

-Playing Basketball

-Playing Pool

-Eating bbq food plus soup

-Taking nice photographs

-Mini Catchup with friends

-Movie cum popcorn...

too much things to do yet no chance to do...HAHA SLOW DOWN THE LIFE!

2012-01-26T23:29:00.002+08:00

Wrong direction?

Sometimes i dont know where i am heading to, what i am saying that resulted in the big big mistakes...

this time i seem to blabber the wrong thing, making the wrong decision. i just hope that there could be some discussion together as one, to make the most perfect decision but i failed...

**i am finding myself irritating.

2012-01-26T00:00:00.003+08:00

WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS...

I thought things will be better after the chinese (new) year...but nope nope nope...

I officially lost the meaning of family, friends and studies...yup, thas hmm basically everything of my life. And when you lose abit of here and there, you have no life...im trying my best to find a little happiness in every single thing but what i face in return, is a little disappointment.

now i hope nothing, expect nothing so that i would not be so disappointed when i dont get anything that i expected. yup, aimless life, dreamless life...

...

so much so i want to try to respect you you, you you dont give me any reasons to respect you you. why? i also dont know why?

a little appreciation will be appreciated.

have i done anything wrong? sometimes i already cannot judge it anymore.

people are reaching the peak yet i have rolled to the bottom or you could even say, i have always been at the bottom. and yet the only thing i can do is to just look at them and bring up that little smile.

...

....

...

Happy CNY to everyone but i dont feel it It totally lost its meaning especially this year. Its supposed to be a festive season for everyone to gather together and spend the time together yet it doesnt happen to me. Maybe everyone has grown, the only purpose of cny only seems to be collecting ang bao for the unmarried ones and giving ang baos for the married ones. I didnt even get to talk to my cousins and they put on a face immediately when they enter the house. I didnt dare to speak though i really feel like catching up with them. Didnt manage to bai-nian with two aunties too. Everyone seemed to be rushing off to so many places. Maybe i should just expect lesser, will that be better?

I HATE RUSHING...CAN WE JUST SLOW DOWN OUR MOVEMENTS AND ENJOY THE MOMENTS?

**Taken a chinese tuition but i have no idea how to teach a language. Hopefully everything goes well, haha have to start revising my chinese! 0.0!

TO BE CONTINUED...SLEEPING TIME, SCHOOL TMR!

2012-01-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

上吐下泻不好玩。。。

Cant this yucky feeling just stay away from me...? :(

2012-01-14T23:20:00.002+08:00

Trying to do my best...

Theres so much that i can do...

Theres so much that i can control...

2012-01-13T20:16:00.005+08:00

So you think you are lucky this year??? :D

Saw this while walking along the bugis street. So will our zodiac (goat) be doing well this year? Heres what the fortune tellers said about us...

CHARACTER

You are gentle and subtile, have a tender look but iron-will innermost. You have exuberant survivorship, but a bit of nervous and pessimistic, poor in crisis management, vulnerable to adversity.

CAREER

Beginning of the year may face obstacles, but your career would become vivid after the third month, you must be humble if you wanted to enjoy in some degrees of accomplishment.

LOVE

The course of true love never did run smoothly, this tend applies to both married couple and infatuation. The proposed solution is to be empathy to each other and spend more time to company.

WEALTH

In this year, your money luck is just average., do not engage in big investment, your ought to spend more time and effort in financial planning, work with a style of pragmatic style and inject fund with frugality.

HEALTH

Immunity could be in poor condition, especially check your eyes, throat and fatigue. Be cautious to your safely and health when traveling overseas.

(Jointly written by Joe Lim & Alan Tan~)

Haha but i usually dont believe in this since there are so many "goats" in the world, does every goat has the same fate? i dont really think so. However, lets just believe in all the good ones okay! HAHA

FOUND MY PRIMARY SCHOOL LOVE IN PLAZA SING!!!

Had been eating this since i was young. It was selling at the ang mo kio food centre at that time, didnt know they have opened another outlet at Plaza Sing... Has stopped eating since i moved house to loyang at the end of my primary school life. The year when i had lost contact with my primary school friends and this curry puff... :( :( :(

*Never want to let myself caught in such situation again...NEVER!!!

**Your concern is not appreciated, so dont bother...like really...you are the one who will get angry in the end. FULL STOP!

***Disappointing...Disappointment...Disappointed...

****Dont stare at me when you were the one who banged into me...

*****Your replies also hurt me...though they mean nothing to you...im just trying to be nice...

2012-01-12T23:08:00.003+08:00

OH NO!

Already knew i dont have a decent good look, now my close one says my hair is messy and i dont look good to her unless i rebond and make it look better. However, i dont like rebond cause its looks way too straight to me and i will look even weirder (just for me)...

Oh no...i dont really have confidence in myself ANYMORE. no brain. no look. haha! :X

2012-01-12T20:47:00.004+08:00

DONT YOU THINK...

Its nice???!!! haha fell in love with this camera bag when i saw it at sim lim and came back home finding it in gmarket! Its looks so much better than my current black (though i still love it, heehee!) but this looks hmmm much better??? SHOULD I GET IT?!!! hahaha!!! Love the checkered ones... 难道我爱上了checkered? haha so many checkered shirts and now this! :D

SHOULD I SHOULD I??? haha

felt so regretted for not taking up the tuition assignment that was posted on the campustutor.com and now its gone T.T... Now have to wait for another suitable one. OH NO!!! :X Next time cannot decide for so long :(

Four 21st birthdays coming up and i hope all the birthday babies will have a memorable one!

Running out of ideas for diys. DOUBLE NO! haha!!!

-Have been thinking lesser but the feeling isnt good either.

-Have tried to keep that happy mood so that i will frown less! (Dont feel good after frowning either)

-Talking lesser but no one is talking to me either so cant listen either!

-Accepting all the things happening around me (:

-Need to do more work and stop hibernating!

-NEED TO COMPLAIN LESS AND APPRECIATE FOR THE THINGS MORE!

-Dont be afraid...

Haha actually just wanted to say have been complaining too much that i think i will scare off the people who i started complaining too. however, i just want to feel a little little much better... so who is willing to be my victim? heehaahoo!!!

2012-01-11T21:04:00.004+08:00

Have been wondering...?

Is there something wrong with my characters? o.o

Lecture and sectional were bad today. Lecturer keep repeatedly asking us to keep quiet which is kind of irritating to me. Cannot wear colourful clothes if not he might call upon you! haha! Marketing sectional was like a waste of time. I think the prof was good at wasting his time and i i literally learnt nothing much at the end of the lesson. Hopefully, it would be better for the future 3HRS lesson!!! Tutorial balloting is such a fuss cause we dont know we will get the slots anot and if we dont know which slots we were be getting, how are we supposed to put them in order in our tutorial choices? No idea, no idea...

Was so hungry this afternoon after my lesson that my cravings set in... Sudden cravings of the tutu kueh and still having that craving for the duo steamboat (bbq food + soup)...Shall stop pasta for the moment because recently had been eating that.

Imhohoho.blogspot has recently became my good friend...@.@

*Never say anything because i know you have no time for it...

2012-01-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

WHY?

Why people behave that way?

Why school has to start?

Why so many unfortunate things have to happen?

Why does time passes so quickly?

Why it seems like everyone has disappear?

Why even the close ones treat you like that?

So many jan babies 21st that for a moment i wish the time could go slower as i find no time for all the diys and presents! And talking about buying presents, im super bad at it. Sorry to my group of friends that i could not be present when you all were buying yt's presents and wr's presents because i was working. However, the contradicting part was that in hope of people forgiving me, i am angry with people who cannot make it to buy present together. Reason very simple, you dont give any reasons and you show no effort in it. Okay, my bad, forgive and forget.

School has just started but im still not looking forward to it. First lecture on monday and its not interesting at all. Conducted by an indian lecturer, oh gosh, i cannot really hear what he is trying to say (sorry about that but i dont really like your accent) and it doesnt benefit me cause i cannot score well for something i dont like! o.o More lessons to go and i hope they will be good though i dont really look forward to the presentations and group works in the near future.

Chinese new year is coming pretty soon and thats bad because i still need a set, a pair of shoes and a new bag!!! Gosh, urgent urgent urgent panic panic panic! However, look on the happier side, hongbao money is coming in! YAY! Money in m bank account has been depleting so fast that it looks as if someone hacks into my acc (recall about the recent posb news! haha!). Scary scary, has to manage my money well (:

Felt that time has been passing very fast yet nothing much has been achieved. Empty feeling but no idea why... My friends seem to disappear from my life again...or have i disappeared from theirs?

**For those who dont have a good start in 2012, hope these days will be over soon! Praying hard for you all (:

2012-01-08T21:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st to the 7th Jan babies!!!

Happy birthday Chen Yantong!

Just like to say sorry for the disappointing night for you on the 6th Jan! Didnt know that you are actually down for this mini celebration. Sorry that i could not make it be part of your surprises on the 7th Jan!

Aside from that, from the bottom of my heart, thanks for being a great friend (one who i knew for 8 years?)... Woah, time really flies! From a dizi mate of different class to a friend to a good friend to a great friend! Again, best wishes to you, enjoy your little adult life from now on! :D live like there is no tomorrow everyday! YAY! UPZ!

Happy birthday Goh Wei Rong!

Our small weirong had turned 21st! A simple dinner but hope she really enjoyed it! Little little effort from every single one of us to come up together with the scrapbook! Hope she like the donuts and the gifts :D

2012-01-05T23:45:00.007+08:00

DONT KNOW? DONT CARE?

Sometimes, isit better to know nothing so you do not care about anything. "Its okay", "nevermind"... are they the truth?

Human can be selfish at times. As long as they are happy, they dont really care about others. Showing a little concern yet received cold replies. Effort may not be appreciated. How bad can you feel?

*I was pretty pissed off with the student ambassador sitting beside me while working. Stop acting as if you know every single thing and just do your job well. Stop imitating me saying thank you (because thats part of my job) and being that irritating. Student ambassador of the school do at least behave yourselves in front of the guests/visitors as you all are the representatives of school. Doing such awful things will only ruin your reputation.

**On the side, am jealous yet happy for friends who got the modules together. Not that im not independent, but it will be much better and more fun to study with friends together. There wont be much chances in the future anymore. How sad it was when you tried (or hinted) to arrange and discuss with a friend to see whether there was any module that can be taken together but the friend didnt care and cannot really be bothered (the feeling she gave) because she has another friend to take with? Its more of being hurt than being sad...

***Just stop asking me questions if you have a doubt in my opinions and answers.

2012-01-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

Think likewise...

When people think different from you, they are not against you...so dont be so defensive (: or else i will be afraid to say my point of view the next time round @.@

2012-01-03T21:13:00.003+08:00

Nervous...Stressed...

ITE matric fair is back... ITE simei will flood with people again tmr! :O Have to be more alert, many things to check again...must be ultra careful again :X

Nearly had an accident today. I think im like 5 inches away from knocking into the cab in front on the expressway. It was worse than an e break. Everything seemed to be happening so fast. I had never step on the brake for so hard before. FULL BREAK! with my mum beside, could you imagine what happen next? Non-stop of nagging from my mum to be careful. Seriously its not my fault, the cars in front really stopped suddenly, on the most right lane of the expressway! Its such an awful sight to see an car accident with 4 cars knocking back to back. Oh man, poor drivers @.@

**When you already dont feel good, the only thing you will want is words of concern and not the doubtful look and more questionings...it may not help but it definitely make you feel much better...

**You should stop when people no longer feel appreciative anymore...

2012-01-02T11:26:00.005+08:00

What do you see when you look back?

Sunshine? Rain? Laughter? Happy Times? Agony? Frustration Times?

Its a mixture for me. School had been so torturing since i entered university.I had been struggling. I had no neutral feeling towards it. It became a chore for me. One of the greatest blow was that i had to retake one of my modules. While everyone proceed with the title of being year 2 student, im still considered as a year 1 student because i had not completed enough number of modules. A fact that i kept away from my parents. Didnt have the courage to talk about studies with my friends and family, feeling like a tortoise hiding in its shell...

To be frank, i have no plans for my future yet. Have been pondering over this for pretty long yet no result. What i going be? I have no idea. Thats scary...

Studies wasnt good on my side but im blessed with great friends and family who i know would be there if i approached them... They have been tolerating with my behaviours and all my nonsense. Really thankful for that...I really love the little chats, gatherings, getaways with them.

2011 passed too fast, way too fast that i cant seemed to remember anything... Let go the bad memories and keep the beautiful ones. Look at something from another point of view, it will be greater (: theres always a reason for something to happen, dont assume, find out why!

Everyone is different, behaving in different ways. Have lower expectations for others.

A simple 2012 resolutions:

- A better and happier year for everyone!

- Be simple (:

Be more forgiving...Be more appreciative...

Theres always a rainbow after the rain. Look forward to the rainbow and enjoy that moment instead of thinking of the rain.

**Can i still be that childish? (:

2011-12-29T23:39:00.003+08:00

Keep your life simple in 2012 (:

2011-12-29T22:33:00.004+08:00

Last blog on 2011

Last blog cause i wont be singapore till 2012...so friends, here to wish you all an early great 2012!!! (I hope the world isnt ending soon :X)

Forgotten all the unhappy stuffs and was very thankful to all the friends for being there for this year... Thankful for all the encouragement and support...

THANK YOU MY FRIENDS...YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE (:

**Christmas was extremely fun and warming this year...

2011-12-19T18:22:00.003+08:00

If only i have the courage to...

say whatever its in my mind. 不敢对你说，因为怕破坏那份友情。

好辛苦哦。

2011-12-13T21:17:00.003+08:00

这是我的格子。。。

P／S：就这样算了吧。:D

2011-12-11T22:55:00.001+08:00

You gave me a feeling of...

me being a person who you will remember when im needed... thank you for that...

2011-12-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly,

im craving for korean food :O

2011-12-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

Why do i feel so lazy???

2011-12-06T22:56:00.001+08:00

If you are unhappy with me, tell me straight in my face =.=

2011-12-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

为什么让我看到这么心痛的事？

2011-12-04T22:53:00.001+08:00

This christmas...

I dont want to spend alone on the eve and christmas :X

2011-12-02T08:42:00.002+08:00

Know your own limits...

Dont be silly...You are 20...Stop being childish...haha

2011-12-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

This is the last time...

that im going to send my car for repair...Be careful of where i drive, stop banging into things or going near the wall...@.@

Can i go and see the christmas lights in orchard? :D

P/S: 感觉怪怪的。how?

2011-11-30T23:14:00.001+08:00

I just want to say...

to you, i hope it hasnt lose its meaning...im so sorry...

2011-11-30T20:00:00.006+08:00

我好像做什么都是错的。

你知不知道我不喜欢你那么做。我看了，心很痛很痛。

考完试了，但一点也不兴奋。为什么？我心里有数。

但给我今天的时间，明天我一定恢复过来。我一定会，这是我给我自己小小的承诺。

不能在自暴自弃，不能这样浪费时间。不值得。开心一点吧。 :D

2011-11-29T18:59:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, feel like...

...taking lots of, lots of photos! :D

Have the sudden urge to visit sentosa...dont know why, but i feel like going there to have a walk. Maybe i like the feeling of being "tourist" there. Haha

Going to start shopping for christmas gifts and i dont know why but i just like buying presents and i do feel happy :D

Things that i feel like doing:

#Kite flying

#Cycling

#Shop

#Basketball

#Pool

#Taking photos

#Sing

Anything but lying at home because holidays are too short to be stayed at home. Haha

...

我发现当你在一个人面前出现太多次，那个人可能会觉得厌倦。所以我打算在你厌倦我时，不在出现。当你需要我时，我才出现吧。人往往都比较珍惜稀少发生的事情，珍惜稀少出现的人。为什么？我也不知道。

2011-11-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

原来真正的掩饰是那么辛苦的。

2011-11-27T21:45:00.001+08:00

FAITH...

Faith is having a positive attitude about what you can do and not worrying at all about what you can't do.

2011-11-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

Im bad at gifts...oh no...!

All of a sudden, i realised i am bad at choosing gifts because i dont see my friends using the presents that i got them @.@''' hmm maybe they just have a different tastes or they dont need them at all.

hmmm...thats...kind...of...sad... :X cause i did put in effort, my friends, believe me..haha!

2011-11-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

ME HEARTS THEM (:

2011-11-18T23:16:00.003+08:00

Will you accompany me if i were to ask?

2011-11-10T18:59:00.001+08:00

I will like to have the power!

P/S: seriously, i hvn been feeling that good since a long time till this morning... but now back to reality...

2011-11-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

2011-11-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

For all my friends...

You all are special in your own way...(:

P/S: especially for DBB! (:

2011-11-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

Give me a break! :(

2011-11-05T09:36:00.002+08:00

I don't want to be like him...

Sometimes I'm quiet not because I'm sad...

I finally realized why...

The reasons are very simple:

1. I don't know the person well.

2. A talking topic that I'm not familiar with.

3. Do not want to interrupt the people who are engrossed in their conversation.

4. I don't belong there.

5. Afraid to say the wrong things and its too tired to keep thinking before talking.

I maybe be a little quiet but I'm may not be sad. So don't be lied by the look of my face. And i hope the people around me are affected. Sorry if i did...

2011-11-03T20:11:00.004+08:00

To my friends who intend to take my personal quiz:

Please type in ur name or appropriate initials so at least i know who you are.

To my friends who have taken my personal quiz:

Those who have used symbols, smiley faces to represent themselves, do tell me who you are through hmmm, sms?

I want to know who you are!!! o.O

2011-10-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

Actually i have no idea what i am doing...

2011-10-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

2011-10-30T16:45:00.004+08:00

...

2011-10-30T08:30:00.002+08:00

I believe everything will be just fine (:

2011-10-29T17:07:00.009+08:00

Its random, try it if you want (: ...

You know me well?

P/S: i created this once before. You can try again if u want, its a new set... (:

2011-10-29T15:33:00.004+08:00

Just feel like...

只想出去走一走，找个人聊一聊，透一下气。

sometimes, the house so quiet that i feel hmm...yup, lonely...

the whole house is mine! woah! woah! woah!

and when you feel like talking to someone, you realized that theres no one.

friends and sisters are all a phone away but who will have so much time to entertain your nonsense?

maybe i grew up in a rather big family when I'm small...

when my sisters are not married yet, the house was always full of talkings and laughters.

there may be quarrels too...

however, as everyone grew, the distance became greater...

my sisters got married and moved out...

the casino is opened and my parents are always nowhere to be seen...

i really missed those days...really miss...

everyone walked in and out of your life...

i really tried to treasure everyone who walks in my life...

my biggest nightmare and regret was that i let all my primary school friends walk out of my life. yes, you might say distance is not a problem. however, the moving of house after my primary school life made that happen. Even my best friend left me... Previously when we met in school, the only things that we could say to each other was just a word : "Hi"...

so if you ever want to leave my life, please do tell me, as least I'm prepared...

i don't like to be alone...please dont leave me alone...i don't like this feeling...

i feel helpless...

for school, the only thing i can said was that i really did try to do my best...really...

though the results are always that disappointing...

and i felt...hmm...ashamed telling my friends about my results...i always try to avoid that topic. yup, i feel like I'm escaping the reality...

don't worry friends, I'm alright k... i just feel like saying it out to make myself feel much better (: (: (:

2011-10-29T00:43:00.001+08:00

this feeling sucks, like really...

2011-10-28T23:20:00.001+08:00

The heart started crying...

A coward who is scared. A failure who is always trapped.

2011-10-27T21:47:00.004+08:00

IM AN ANGRY BIRD!!!

FREAKO!!! IM DAMN DAMN DAMN ANGRY!!!

2011-10-24T17:09:00.002+08:00

Isn't him cute? ^^

I think he looks kind of cute and funny?

2011-10-23T20:59:00.002+08:00

Why?

You kind of make me lose confidence...

You kind of make me fear of talking or approaching you...

2011-10-22T21:26:00.003+08:00

You, you and just you...

A note to myself : 不要再自找麻烦了，加惠。Don't dig your own hole (cause i don't like grave) and fall into it.

2011-10-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

My best friend is the best pain killer. The ingredients are simple; caring and sharing. (:

-unknown

2011-10-21T21:54:00.003+08:00

Its gona be okay...its gona be alright?

Day started well with a mac breakkie with jo... (:

don't know why, but had a feeling as if i had never seen like my other friends for a period of time...heh heh

# skipped my bio lecture (cause there would be webcast, haha) to prepare for my finance paper...However disappointment still set in...why all the lecture notes + textbook and the tutorial questions make the concepts look so easy but the quiz questions look like alien language, i can't seem to answer them! efforts = result? sometime, I'm just wondering...maybe i had not put enough effort... i feel really lousy, i really have no idea why I'm a business student, really no idea...

*P.S just let me feel lousy for a day...

# i accidentally scratch my rims...what a good driver i am =.=

# knowing that zoe wont be going 3e meaning no walking home buddy and no more small little chats...

# knowing jo couldnt join us today either...

# being scolded for no reasons and unable to say back cause u are younger...

how bad a day can go? i hope it will just stop here...the day is long enough for me...boohoo and does this look like a series of unfortunate events to you? ha

2011-10-20T19:12:00.002+08:00

Happy :D

this came at the right time when i need to study for my finance test tmr!

as some of you may know, finance is my weakness...

weakness = killer paper = me struggling = im scared. haha, what kind of equation is this?!!

loving the way i think : not to worry for things that i shouldn't worry...

just let the nature takes place...whatever will happen, will happen and whatever will not, will not...

and i have so many things that i feel like doing:

I WANT TO ESCAPE OUT OF MY HOUSE AND NUS! hahaha

and I'm craving for xlb and my yogurt! gosh...!

on a side note, I'm seriously a junk eater... ate too much chips and chocolates that i think my body will be in a bad shape if i continue...someone please please please stop me!

2011-10-18T13:30:00.001+08:00

You...You...You...

Your can't-be-bothered attitude is kind of irritating... o.o!

2011-10-17T09:31:00.000+08:00

The boys in the house...!

2011-10-17T08:24:00.005+08:00

A failure...

not in the study field (yet)...

but being a friend to my friends, a daughter/sister to the family... :(

P/S: 好想慢慢的离开，可不可以？

2011-10-15T09:39:00.005+08:00

为什么感觉怪怪的？

可不可以说是我错了?

IPHONE 4S is out!

but i was rather disappointed as i thought iPhone 5 would be out...but still as excited cause I'm gona get iPhone next year as my own 21st gift! haha i shall make the phone special by getting it on the day before i become a young adult! ^^ and i should start saving!

talking about birthdays, i realized birthday celebrations are becoming more and more interesting for thisyear. Lots of surprises succeeded and much more effort will put in (: ! As for me, made much more DIYs and i do really hope my friends love them as they are not really nice and maybe taking up spaces in their homes! oh no! haha!

**and i already have a small little request in mind for my friends on my 21st. heehee! okay its still very very long! lol!

looking forward to dec for a mini getaway, and i think i should start planning what i can do for the upcoming short holidays for dec and jan before they arrived real fast! but I'm not a planful person so i have nothing on my mind yet o.o! holiday job? school activity? outings with friends? what can i do?!!

Friends around me are talking about SEPs and my friends are going SEPs next year! To be truthful, I'm kind of envious of people who can make it to SEP. However, i know i cannot make, oh well oh well... Im not pessimistic but rather realistic. I know my cap cannot bring me to honours, even i go for honours, it would lower class honors which i don't think it reflects well on my cert. So no honors means no SEPs on my third year. So i shifted my goal of going another country to study on Summer Trips! I really hoped that i can go either Korea, Taiwan or Hongkong next june/july! (: (: (:

So many smart students in the school that I'm more than happy to be an average student in the school. Heehee, okay what a lousy aim, not ambitious at all =.='''

And friends! Can we like go out together soon? kind of miss all of you :X its kind of long since we last have a chill out together!

2011-10-14T12:07:00.002+08:00

People walk in and out of your life...

Treasure those who stayed in your life...

and i hope you are not leaving my life...

P.S: Parents going cruise today for 3 days... Don't like the house to be so quiet with no one... :X and they are leaving me behind to china for 5 days in Nov...=X boohoo!

and can my throat faster recover so that i can start eating more food! Eating makes me happy!!! Yay! ^^

2011-10-13T17:07:00.000+08:00

不要那么容易放弃。。。

2011-10-12T13:47:00.001+08:00

我怕了自己。。。

im scared of myself? O.o?

On a side note,

You will feel sad if you keep thinking that you have a sad life...

You will be happier if you think of the brighter side. Think of what you have and not what you don't have...

and i choose to be happy! (: (: (:

2011-10-11T17:09:00.001+08:00

Im growing everyday...

and I'm learning everyday...

2011-10-10T16:10:00.001+08:00

Gona stand firm this time...

boohoo, not giving in this time round...boohoo boohoo!

2011-10-10T14:23:00.002+08:00

Happiness is in your hand

I totally agree what you said, the world is ending and why be bothered with the unhappy things, be happy!

however, its always easy to say, difficult to do...

i wanted to say out so badly but i knew i couldnt...

i don't want people to give in to me because i will feel even worse... i wanted to go out so badly so badly to have a good meal and walk around the malls yet i know all my friends have their own plans and things to do that i choose not to ask...

i feel sorry to you cause i think my attitude was bad and i hope it didn't spoil your day.

i feel so bad when people giving you the feeling that you aren't important at all and your existence does not make a difference.

i just want to give in because i am easy with choices and okay with any choices but yet not making the choice makes my friends feel that i am indecisive and irritate them. However, i knew if my choice is something that they won't agree on or like, why will i suggest it?

when all these combine with school and family stuff, it got worse. so bad that i have no idea what to do...

P/S: I'm sorry to you-know-who-you-are...

boohoo, this is bad...

but i will be okay...(:

2011-10-07T20:32:00.000+08:00

The results...

2011-10-07T08:51:00.003+08:00

我很想很想...

出门走一走...

Mid terms finally going end tmr!!! and i really feel like going out for a walk and a good meal on monday (cause weekends are always flooded with ppl, haha!) after 2 long weeks of the battle against exams and sick monster...

有没有人也想出一下门？

2011-10-06T18:25:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DBB!!!

and and and...

he looks cute at times and weird at times... heh heh!

2011-10-06T11:15:00.002+08:00

The scary side of sick monster...

Usually i take like one/two days to recover from a fever or even recovering in a few days for cough/running nose but i never been sick for more than a week...never ever in my life.....

last monday was the start of the scary sickness. It started with slight fever (that i thought will recover in a day) then it continued to become high fever (that lasted for 3-4days). On and off, on and off there it went. It was so torturing and frustrating that the fever won't go and making u feel weak, giving u all the headaches that you felt as if someone was using a hammer to hit you. Whats worse, last friday and saturday were my exam days. Not able to concentrate in lessons, feeling tensed up with all the P6 tuitions and deadlines, they just blasted my brain. What made it worse that you felt as if you were fighting this battle alone, with no support and anything.

I still could remember that my friend said "I still study when i am sick". I admired him but his words didn't really make me feel good. I really wanted to study, believe me. I tried my best to revise because i knew i NEED to. However, with all the mental wear out and tiredness, i really couldn't do much. All that added more stress on myself. (Everyone is mugging hard out there and you are lying on the bed?!! Gosh jiahui, you gona be dead!)

Fever was better but there came the cough. Scary cough i should say. I coughed all day and night, even when i was asleep, i would wake up in the middle of the night and cough. I really wished i could change my lungs that time. It was so painful and torturing that i visited the doctor the 2nd time on Sunday.

Doctor:"Do you know u still having fever?"

Me:"Nope" (seriously, i thought i was feeling pretty okay")

Doctor:"You are still running a fever!" *then he showed me the thermometer.

Me:"i think i have been feeling even hotter for the past few days that i thought i am okay today"

I told him how bad my cough was (i don't even feel like talking cause once i started talking, i would start coughing as well). then he told me if i don't feel okay or never recover at all by tuesday (4Oct), i would need to go for a blood test! Like what? blood test. Okay, i thought it must be quite serious if i need to go for a blood test! i could tell you that that moment, i was really scared. I didn't dare to tell anyone. And guess what, my killer finance paper was on 4th Oct tuesday too!

I somehow can understand why some patients will anyhow lose their temper and started flaring at anyone. I think they really feel very "xin ku" and there are really limited things that they can do within their ability. The irritating part was that you knew you had so much to do and you really had the mental to do it but no strength to do it...

Being healthy is really the best thing that you can have (:

2011-10-02T14:57:00.001+08:00

Im praying real hard this time...

Please...i am feeling really really very very scared this time...

Please let everything be okay... Please...

2011-09-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

Please replace my lungs.

Thank you(:

P/S: Learn to keep a distance (:

2011-09-28T05:11:00.002+08:00

Life is like a roller coaster for me for the past 1 day...

It felt as if i went to desert at a moment,

as i felt super hot...so hot that i started sweating for no reason...no hot sun but yet I'm sweating...

It felt as if I'm in north pole for a moment at the lecture hall and tutorial room,

as i felt so cold...so cold the tips of my finger feel numb and became purple? yeah, purple!!! like its gona freeze!

the temperature went extremely high in my life that i thought its gona fry my brain... I'm already stupid enough, these heat may kill all my smart brain cells! oh gosh!!!

P/S:

Jiayou to my friends who are having/taking their mid terms soon!

Hoping that my 2 PSLE boys and the 2 P4 students can score well for their exams!!! (:

and i need to really mug hard for the time i lost for the past 2 days +.= oh no!

2011-09-27T00:15:00.001+08:00

I love DIY! (:

DIY always make me happy...

And they are something that you can never buy with money...

I guess making things is a kind of hobbies?

Satisfied...Satisfied...Satisfied...

Okay bye world...for school tmr =.=

2011-09-26T12:52:00.000+08:00

At this point of time,

i just want somebody to be beside me...

2011-09-25T17:52:00.002+08:00

Its not the time to feel weak now~

2011-09-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

I need to get back the confidence just like what i have for the past 19 years!

I don't know why but i feel ultimate stressed up for these few days... i have lost all my confidence in doing anything especially anything related to studies... i don't have the courage to face any new challenges in my life. i sort of...hmm...lost faith?

i know i cannot think this way... i need to get back my confidence and faith...

i need to...but can i?

P/S: i know i can't make it for sep...but i will try summer trip to countries like taiwan/beijing/hongkong/korea... something that i really feel like experiencing in my uni life... thats my short term goal for now...

2011-09-19T19:34:00.002+08:00

Sept babies in the 2D1N house!

Had a mini birthday celebration for the mj sept babies (Van hui and Hui Xin!!!) at the 2D1N and ended up everyone having the strong bbq smell trapped in their hair and bags! haha oh well, free smell for the night so that they could dream of 2D1N even they left! xD

Hmmmm... its full of meat varieties plus prawns. And prawns have been always my favorite especially BBQ prawns! according to my friends, i have a weird and scary way of eating prawns, eating the whole prawns with their shells on! haha, I'm not a lazy bum who refused to remove the shells but i think the shells have the sauce and the bbq taste on it, the meat itself does not have much taste...HAHA!

A diy cake for both of them (okay, i only designed 10% of it, and yan hua designed 90% of the cake). And gifts for them! Lucky they both liked the presents ( yanhua and i spent the whole afternoon to shop for the gifts, really crack our brains to think!!! roar!!)

The MJ girls at 2D1N...

P/S: 感觉怪怪的, 还能找回那种感觉吗？

2011-09-17T10:32:00.008+08:00

Lets put aside the work and munch(Z)!

Had dinner with my ag Z classmates ytd at "Tang Wang" located near west coast plaza! Its buffet steamboat!!! Something that i always love to have ^^ Its a a la carte buffet, which you just need to ticked all the food that you wish to eat and they will serve right in front of your face. And the most important is that its cheaper than seoul garden (excluding the bbq part). However, it came with the yuan yang tang where you get to choose 2 soup base. I can tell you the tom yum is really nice (to me), haha! Its 17.9 nett per person which i think was rather okay with the kind of service plus eat all you can till late.

The free complementary lime juice that our friend, Jason managed to get for us. He told the boss to give some free things since he brought like 13 of us to the shop. And of course, the boss was very nice to give us this. He was also very polite, i like i like. Not only with the good serving service, he also very friendly to offer to take photos for us (:

The different tables of people. Cause my friends and i were sitting in the centre of the the other 2 tables, the people always put our food with them due to the limited space of our table. It ended up that our food was always stolen by them!!! Ehhhhh, angry with them!! haha I'm just kidding xD

This is the ag z class (the name that the school gave us) plus some of our friends made in the different modules in the past 2 sems. Though we may no longer have the same mods anymore, we were still as bonded (: They are really a bunch of nice friends that i made in nus class!!!

and this is my nonsense and crappy buddy, Kathleen Lai!

I miss her a lot a lot and i only get to see her like twice a week for lectures and sometimes she doesn't sit with us cause she sat with her friend. Really miss the times that we were sitting together in classes and doing projects. We sometimes even crap till our friend, Xavier stared at us. HAHA!!

School this sem is very different. Things seem to be always change. And we have to adapt to changes. I no longer doing projects with the people that i know. its scary but this is a fact that we have to accept. But there is something that will never change, the friendship between all of us. I believe that we were once a friends, we will always be friends. We may seldom meet, but when we meet, we don't feel distant, we are still as close. I hope this continues on... (:

Be brave!

2011-09-15T18:05:00.005+08:00

BE BRAVE!...

Words from DBB (:

I decided to call it "Flower Lion" and it has a chinese name called 花狮, but i think it sounded like 花痴, haha! @.@'''

Be brave...Something that i think i have to learn and i am in the process of learning to be brave.

Too many things happen at one go and i learn how not to avoid them but how to face them...

Ouch ouch and more ouch!

Bring my mac lappy naked but ended up returned home with lots of injury. I promised i won't bring it out naked anymore!!! At that moment when it landed on the floor, my heart nearly popped out. What surprised me more is that my friends around me just stood there (and even joked about it), not offering to help me to take it up when my hands were full of things. @.@

They are here! ^^

Cheap and fast delivery! Aren't they cute?

So many things happened for the past 1 week and i have tried hard to clear my mind. I realized thinking too much is useless, the one who suffers may end up to be yourself. What i mean is don't think too much, sufficient thinking and reflecting is still recommended. And please do reflect and think at the right time, don't drag in innocent people into the situations too. (For e.g., if you are angry with this person, please never flare on the other person).

Misunderstandings...

2 different misunderstandings with 2 different outcomes.

Reasons: 2 different people with 2 different personalities.

I had this misunderstanding with this very close friend of mine last week, and seriously, i never see her being so angry with me before. To say frankly, initially, i was angry with her being angry with me, cause i just thought that i was only doing sth that i should do but it ended up making her frustrated (okay,i am stubborn sometimes). but later, i was rather more upset than angry cause i don't think such small matter should actually spoil a friendship. however, i was glad that the misunderstanding was cleared because we understand what each other think and were willing to put in the effort in giving in, clearing it.

On the other hand, such happy ending doesn't always happen. Misunderstanding with another friend didn't out good. I tried to put myself in her shoes and think how will i react if i was her. I didn't really blame her for thinking that way but she didn't even give me a chance to explain. Its really a tiny whinny thing and i didn't expect everything turn out this way. Perhaps she doesn't have that enough trust in my words and maybe to her, I'm not sincere enough. Whatever it is, i just wish that it will be okay in the end.

Best friends...Good friends...

They do not come easy, treasure them.

To all my dearest friends (for who you know you are) :

Thanks for understanding me. Thanks for letting me know that you will be there when i need you. Thanks for accepting who i am (my stubbornness, my nonsense, my bad attitude and everything).

2011-09-08T20:04:00.001+08:00

Tears...

Tears of anger...

Tears of laughter...

Tears of sadness...

There is a story behind all the tears...

2011-09-08T18:20:00.007+08:00

Tomorrow will be better. Things will get better.

Be hopeful...!

These few days have not been good, but rather bad.

First, the night has been filled with noise. Some noise that i don't like...why must they behave in this way? i have no ideas. i have no authority to stop them either.

Second, they were so insensitive that they only think of themselves, without even thinking for me. Im not as free as you all think. Couldnt you see i was flooded with work? I didn't even have the time for a proper break for a meal. the only thing that you do was to ask me to do all the things.

Thirdly, i was hoping to bring up a smile but i failed terribly. In the end, it turned out bad. Felt more sad rather than angry.

Fourth, i have never like log in cors or sign my gem attendance. I saw, BBA1, meaning that I'm still considered as a year 1 student. Because of the SEA (not that i never put in much effort other than the project work), i did not pass it. The fear is always there. I worked hard but the result is not there. Maybe i have not worked hard enough @.@

Fifth, i should not have told my mum.

i felt useless at times, i felt stupid at times...i know i shouldnt feel that way...

Im not thinking too much, is that too many things happen in such a short time.

I need to study hard, like real hard, who's with me?

Projects, works all gushing in but i really need a good break in between.

2011-09-06T19:43:00.003+08:00

i never dare to speak up...

sometimes i wish to do something soooooo badly and hope to find someone to do with me but i just don't dare to speak up and ask...

why? maybe I'm just scared of rejection.

2011-09-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

Just hope to receive a bit more of it...

P/S: Sometimes i wish to strangle you but i can't @.@

Someone please save me...like save me...

How to study at home with so much noise and nonsense?

PEACEEEEEEE....

2011-09-04T01:42:00.003+08:00

I do love guitar just that i do not like to learn it alone. :X

its kind of boring to learn alone and the class of mine is too small that i hvn practice enough, the teacher is always back that fast to my side to ask me play...

perhaps i should try to learn it myself though i don't know how well will it goes...

and i kind of missed my flutes. one of these days, I'm gona touch them and blow the dust off...

why so many things running through in my mind?

Please remove the unnecessary or my brain will be too tired @.@

heehee

P/S: i love going out and talking to my friends. it feels good. (: (: (:

Friday was fun with zoe, wr and wee (jo can't join us :( )... with all bowling and arcade games plus the nice japanese food.

thanks jojo for satisfying my craving for steamboat though i have the wrong choice of soup base ^^

2011-09-01T22:46:00.003+08:00

how do you know the feeling of happiness?

Ans: when u have experienced sadness, you will then know the true meaning of happiness.

2011-09-01T08:18:00.000+08:00

“Are we going to be friends forever?” Asked Piglet.
“Even longer,” Pooh answered

2011-08-31T19:39:00.002+08:00

I believe that by doing so, i will feel better (:

2011-08-30T09:27:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Tabitha Sim Ju-Ee!!!

Silence of love (Official English Subtitle) TVC Thai Life Insurance

2011-08-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

I think i need to grow too...

2011-08-29T13:54:00.004+08:00

great movies coming out...

smurfs...cars2...chipmunks... all the cute little creatures!!!...

plus the thrilling action-final fantasy 5!

anyone wants to watch, please do ask me along! xD